Good news

Received some of the best I could have gotten today. Normally I do not answer my cell when I do not know the number but I did this time. i was surprised when it was Tracy Unified they are in the next phase of hiring and are inviting the top 10 candidates to a panel interview and I am one of the 10. The interview will be with 7 principals and I will have to teach a lesson the to panel. i am so excited. My interview is May 2nd so wish me luck.

Back from the doctor

So because one cycle ended and another one started I had to go to the doctor. I know this post will have a lot of information that many may not want to read because i was there and know what happened. You have been warned. So because that was my first cycle on clomid i really did not know what to expect. I got the the Dr and was told to strip below the waste. I guess I had a shocked look on my face because the nurse double checked that she had the right patient and told me what I was there for. So I strip and sit on the pee pad they put down so I wont bleed on the table and I wait. I can hear them in the hall asking if anyone has seen my Dr. I dont like the room I was in the room I am normally in has butterflies on the ceiling. Finally the Dr comes in and we talk. I ask her if she is at all concerned that my progesterone is only 9.1 and she says no. I ask again because (and I tell her this) I read that anything under 15 for a medicated cycle is not great. She says that we accomplished what we wanted and I did ovulate so that is good that lets give this a chance. Ok. So she also says that the HSG will come next cycle if I ovulate again and dont get pregnant. Ok. She also says that there are a few more tests that will go with it. ok. At this point she asks me to lay back feet in stirups greeeeaaat. I lay there she inserts 2 fingers and pushes on my belly. WHY OUCH. Im already cramping and you want to push on my belly. Good news is the script is the same and my insides feel fine so he we go again. When i got home I called erick and I told him. I also told him I never want to hear him bitch when he has to get his prostate checked. LOL.

A sum of my feelings

Time of death... 11am

Here is the warning this post may have TMI. I am not saying it does as at this point I have not written the rest but based on what inspired this I think it does.

So it all started yesterday I started having pink only when I went to the bathroom. My temp also dropped. I was so excited for this cycle. The clomid and getting a confirmation on actually ovulating. Then my chart looked great textbook even. Such high hopes all to be dashed this morning with what is best described as more than just pink when going to the bathroom. What makes this even worse is I want Erick even more and just cant do it. This is just cruel. Nature is mean. Not only do I not get what I want so badly but I cant even have sex with my husband. Now I have to be sure and call the Dr first thing in the morning so that they can squeeze me in for a check and to get my new script of clomid at a higher dose. I will once again get poked prodded and most likely get the camera shoved up my cooch while bleeding so that once again i can take pills that will keep me up at night and sick in the morning and most likely get nothing out of it.

To add to the insult yesterday I went to a recruitment fair for teachers and was told that I was going to be hard pressed to find a job for next year because I am in a saturated field right now and that nothing about my degree is special. One more thing to look forward to. Grrrrraaaate. So if all else fails I will spend a year subbing but I think we may move. I think that Stockton is getting to small. I want to move north. Before I get messages freaking out no this is not for sure and no it is not something at has been discussed in depth so dont worry it is not going to happen tomorrow.

OK so some good news Ericks mom thought we needed a vacation so she is sending us to LOS VEGAS FOR THREE DAYS. I know it isnt a lot of time but it is better than nothing and she is footing the bill for the plane and the hotel. Woooo Hooo. Well that about sums up everything right now.

Not in a mood for blogging

Not really in the mood to post. I have not forgotten about you. No I am not PG. I just don't want to post since getting in trouble with family for a post. Im not feeling well and I have a Dr appointment on Tuesday.

Interview Update

I know that I should have posted this yesterday but what can you do I took a nap after getting sunburned at the street fair. I got the the interview location about thirty minutes early. When I walked in the handed me a bag of goodies. Once inside they had refreshments and booths for us to talk to. At my selected time I went to an orientation and learned all about the district, schools, population, and staffing needs. Immediately after the orientation I went straight to my interview. This is where things went sour. This interview was identical to my first interview. They did not ask me one thing pertaining to any of the documents that I turned in. So now I am wondering if I was misled. Tomorrow I will call HR and ask if this was right. I mean at least I new the questions and had answers to them.

Confusion Thy Name is....

I know I am new to this but sometimes I just want to be one of those people that has things fall in their lap. I really thought that sticks you pee on would be easier than this. I have been taking OPK the last three days. Day 1 no second line. Day 2 faint second line. Today again no line. I thought in all my readings that getting a faint line meant that lines were supposed to over time get darker not get disappear all together. So now I am just really confused. Then again when am I not confused about what my body is doing. Cant something go textbook?

So my interview is now just hours away and I could not be looking more forward to it. I will let you know how it goes tomorrow.

Not as bad as I thought

A little update about medications and life. I have finished taking Clomid and I only had a few hot flashes, nausea, and mood swings. Though it was not fun it wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. I took a mental health day today and ditched class. I just needed to spend some time with Erick. Before Erick could relax he wanted to finish the laundry he started a few days ago so I pressed my suit for my interview. I am so ready for this I am going to blow them out of the water. I hope all who are reading this are having as good of a day as I am. The funny thing is even with the few large assignments I have coming up with school the only thing I am really worried about is my blood work I have to go in to do on the 15Th. That blood work will determine our next step. Oh BTW in total since January 21 I have lost 42 pounds. OK going to go watch a movie with Erick.

Things looking up

So my boss called me last night to talk and said he finally got it. He told me to sleep in and take my time. When I got in the office he took me out to lunch to talk about how we can make this better. I am really happy he did this. Now if only i could get my other boss to have it click. I sent her the doc that she wanted by this morning at about 7 last night and still haven't heard from her. Oh well. I haven't been feeling to well in the morning it is not terrible but it is hard to eat. I have now lost more than 40 pounds. wooo hooo!

Maybe Im the fool

I had a horrible day at work today. My commitment to the job was questioned as was how hard I was working. I am in a tight situation because my work pays for 90% of my tuition as well as giving me a nice set check. I am salaried for 20 hours per week. I am given a lot of computer based creative projects and was told I could work from home at times. Well when I was given a large or complex project I ask if there is any reason I have to be in the office. If I am told no I go home complete the project and email it back when done. The problem is I have 3 bosses and no one to really report to. None of my bosses talk or let the other one know what I am doing/ what they have given me. They are very busy people and often out of the office so I have to contact through email. I tried to express concerns about my workload and got the brushoff. That was until today when I was questioned as to if I was doing the work I was being paid for. That hurt me. I have worked for this office for 5 years, they know me. I am a hard worker and often do projects and create things that are more than what was asked for because I know its coming. After 5 years I can read them. I am often complemented on my work and this is bull. Maybe I need to start just telling them sorry I have already but my 20 hours in for this week and Im going home even if it is only wednesday see you next monday. I cant keep going on like this. So after one of the people above me told me this and I effectively had to prove what I have done (even though projects and information are turned in every day) I was finally understood. It finally clicked to him that both of them where giving me a weeks worth of work. So now we will see if things actually get better.